As She Lay Dying
She isn't long for this world, my Dear Mother. I never thought things would move this fast. Three weeks ago we were told 9 months to a year. She stopped eating, drinking, moving. She was taken to the hospital on...oh I don't know my days run together so bad. Monday. It was a Monday. Here, I edit this post nearly 4 years later and I can recount them in horrid detail. I was up for 23 hours straight after getting off work the other morning. I sat at the hospital for about 5 hours and she never moved anything more than her arms, couldn't really open her eyes. I'm not sure how much of that was the ativan and morphine though. She couldn't speak but with few breaths cried for her mother, something I wish I could have done in the moment. The family came from near and far. I wasn't ready. My sister stayed the night. I will forever regret her making that decision. She was with her in her final moments. It has haunted her this whole time. I don't know if missi